Fighting….

[bruschi11]

i want you to drink coffee+biotin more often if it means you're gonna be dropping write-ups like these hehe.


can you share his name?

Sure. I’ll dm

 

[Platinum Blonde]

@bruschi11 Just got to get back on the horse one step at a time. I do notice with myself if I do the right things life becomes easier. I will feel bad mentally maybe but life becomes easier. If you go the opposite way life becomes harder and worse. Also I think it's important to listen to feedback from parents and friends. They often see stuff you don't see and more objectively. Doesn't mean you should throw everything out or listen 100% to their advice. But they are like feedback mechanisms you can use to steer yourself in the right way. When I do well and make improvements I also notice my parents and friends are more receptive and they say they think I am doing well and stuff. I used to be very stubborn and not listen to anything and it can be helpful but it always caused mistakes in the things I did and then I would rationalise it. The ego is powerful often tries to protect us but can also cloud judgement because of it.

Guys, what do you mean when you say “Ego”?
Because this concept is so broad that it means something different depending on the religion or ideology.
Similarly, because of these differences, the “death of the ego” can be interpreted in two ways: as a state of freedom and liberation from conditioning—including trauma—and seeing everything as a new, unfamiliar image (you can guess what causes this) or the loss of one’s own individual identity in favor of oneness with everything and death starvation, since this state necessitates a pranic diet so as not to harm other living beings—plants and animals, serial killers who are just like us (human’s greatest fear; we’re not really afraid of death, but of this—that’s how it is in PSSD).
These two states are essentially opposites: the first is liberation, and the second is the loss of free will and independence, along with a powerful fear that, due to its intensity, we cease to feel—this is schizophrenia. It is known which receptor systems trigger the first and second states, and they are opposites.

 

[bruschi11]

That biotin coffee thing led to one of the worst days of my life today.

I just can’t take it anymore. Days like this can’t happen.

 

[bruschi11]

I think the fat oxidation ultimately ends up burning both atp and co2.

I haven’t left bed all day besides to go to CVS for Epsom salts as I did a mag bath that just made things worse. Sea water was best thing today just standing in it up to my knees.

Got yogurt down this morning but nothing since besides a glass of milk and orange juice.

Just shaking in a bed all day with a couple naps in midst of it. I hope I can pass out tonight and get back on track tomorrow.

This is the 3rd time this has happened in last 2 months. First cagrilintide, then tirzepetide, now this. Actually 4th. Cyproheptadine did something similar as well.

I think my mistake today was injecting carnitine with breakfast. I was due for injection. But gotta realize high dose biotin pushed that pathway hard yesterday . I was in a bad bad state this morning but thought I was gonna go out and work later. Instead I just so much worse as day went.

I was losing weight before this. Had entered the 220s . Losing more now smh wasn’t looking for it but whatever.

I have SLU-PP-332 coming mail tomorrow. I was really excited to start it but realize I’m gonna have to get back to a baseline before doing so.

 

[bruschi11]

yea it was a copper dump without iron from the coffee/ biotin .

Which happens from coffee enemas. And excess biotin. So I combined a big coffee with biotin and hello craziness.

I think it’s the potassium depletion that causes this. ATP dies. Meb12–> adob12 shuts down. Gtp dies. So vitamin A metabolism shuts down without adob12.

Never mind biotin using up ado as well.

I didn’t even use oligoscan to see what happened in the crash. I saw the good from biotin. But this crash, I’m waiting to recover a bit before I can scan again.probably tomorrow.

I can’t sleep again second night in a row . But I did get some naps in today.

 

[RebelWithACause]

Guys, what do you mean when you say “Ego”?
Because this concept is so broad that it means something different depending on the religion or ideology.
Similarly, because of these differences, the “death of the ego” can be interpreted in two ways: as a state of freedom and liberation from conditioning—including trauma—and seeing everything as a new, unfamiliar image (you can guess what causes this) or the loss of one’s own individual identity in favor of oneness with everything and death starvation, since this state necessitates a pranic diet so as not to harm other living beings—plants and animals, serial killers who are just like us (human’s greatest fear; we’re not really afraid of death, but of this—that’s how it is in PSSD).
These two states are essentially opposites: the first is liberation, and the second is the loss of free will and independence, along with a powerful fear that, due to its intensity, we cease to feel—this is schizophrenia. It is known which receptor systems trigger the first and second states, and they are opposites.

Maybe subjective but to me ego is like you think you know best to the point of stubborness eventhough all signs of reality around you point the opposite way. I know many people like this they have their head stuck up their ass because they are too scared to lose control, some sort of control which doesn't exist. It's an instinct to protect itself from outside things.

This is why I also use other people's reaction to me as a way to gauge if what I am doing is correct. It's not like I look for confirmation it's more I use them as a mirror to see what way to go.

I don't like spirituality so I'm not the guy to talk about the meaning of ego... Ego is probably not even a real thing. I just use it to describe the thing that a lot of people have where they ignore all signs of reality to the point of obliviousness and thinking they are correct in doing so. Eventhough you can use reflections from reality to carve your own path and see what needs to be done.

Other people but also reality, your own body reaction (physically) etc. they all come in contact with reality. Your brain can skew a lot of things in reality because it's heavily filtered.

 

[Platinum Blonde]

Maybe subjective but to me ego is like you think you know best to the point of stubborness eventhough all signs of reality around you point the opposite way. I know many people like this they have their head stuck up their ass because they are too scared to lose control, some sort of control which doesn't exist. It's an instinct to protect itself from outside things.

This is why I also use other people's reaction to me as a way to gauge if what I am doing is correct. It's not like I look for confirmation it's more I use them as a mirror to see what way to go.

I don't like spirituality so I'm not the guy to talk about the meaning of ego... Ego is probably not even a real thing. I just use it to describe the thing that a lot of people have where they ignore all signs of reality to the point of obliviousness and thinking they are correct in doing so. Eventhough you can use reflections from reality to carve your own path and see what needs to be done.

Other people but also reality, your own body reaction (physically) etc. they all come in contact with reality. Your brain can skew a lot of things in reality because it's heavily filtered.

So we have a similar approach to defining the ego.
If you want to find out how the concept of the Ego originated in spirituality and what its purpose is, maybe I’ll dare to write about it privately. There, it’s the opposite: psychopathic male logic is needed to spot manipulation; it’s a part of us that spirituality condemns so that we don’t notice certain inconsistencies within these organizations. I don’t know if I should say this. It touches very deeply on PSSD and PFS, as well as my private work and scientific experiments. But what I can say is that you’ll learn much more about PSSD from a singer than from some random, generic doctor in a psychiatric ward.

 

[bruschi11]

Slu-pp-332 is very very interesting.

Feel it could save my life or end it. We will see.

30 hours into it. Will report back soon.

 

[bruschi11]

Yea I get it. Slu-pp-332 acts like fasting. When you activate ERb you lower insulin blocking potassium in the cell.

This is what Gbold liked about fasting.

This is why I’m killing my muscle on it. Gaining fat.

So it is like a 3 day on 4 day off type supp it seems. Might actually be perfect.

I feel horrible. And I was really hungry. Oligoscan tomorrrow morning gonna be interesting. I would scan tonight but computer is burnt out .

So yea… my potassium was low this morning in Oligo. After the dose yesterday.

I’m not really sure what Oligo potassium means. It’s the one nutrient I’ve yet to fully understand on it. But I must say. I know how I react to potassium and food with potassium when it’s working. And right now…: I feel like I’m getting no potassium.

I think it’s the blocking. With the SLU. By keeping insulin down.

I guess I’ll test myself tomorrow and dose SLU again tomorrow 2x again. Then take 2-3 days off of it and see if there’s a bounce back.

 

[highserotonin90]

If you had to summarize or say what has worked best since the beginning of this journal, what would you say today?

 

[bruschi11]

If you had to summarize or say what has worked best since the beginning of this journal, what would you say today?

Your question shows why basically nobody can get better from these things. Cuz you are looking for a something.

It’s about connecting systems to make the full body run as a whole. As the body is a machine dependent on a bunch of enzymes that dictate where electrolytes , iron copper , amino acids go etc etc to form energy to literally turn the brain on. As the brain turns on (atp) more iron copper move out of organs into the blood where they need to be metabolized to make cortisol .

B12 dictates a lot of that. Thyroid does and for me it seems I get thyroid working through b12 and iodine. But I’m on TRT now and I needed hormonal support like dhea to get thyroid going in late 2024 when I began iodine based approach. But it really kinda transitioned more into a b12 TRT iodine approach carnitine biotin with them needed badly eventually.

I have a big 6 supplements next to TRT. They work together.

Meb12 adob12 iodine carnitine biotin zinc

But electrolytes need to happen with these and I consider calcium an electrolyte so I give it .

Pretty high carb diet but most carbs being fast acting orange juice sugars. I’ll drink cokes. I don’t care I do so well with sugars . But slow acting carbs I don’t love.

Supposedly this is what happens in chromium deficiency. Complex carbs just aren’t great.

 

[bruschi11]

The SLU is real interesting. Going on it, my morning erections stopped. I used it 3 days. Now that I’m off as I didn’t use yesterday. I woke up this morning with strongest morning erection

There’s def a bounce back here.

It made my hunger increase a lot. And I ate a lot of food the last 3 days. But haven’t put any weight on. Actually seems I’m burning fat and putting muscle on according to the Hume scale.

I guess I’ll do that again shortly. I love how short the half life is . Like 2 hours

 

[bruschi11]

Yes clear bounce back on oligoscan as well.

Man I would love to cycle this stuff and eat well in my off cycles from Reta. Cuz I gotta eat to heal flat out. I had 4 meals yesterday and lost weight overnight .

I’ll do 2-3 more days off. And only do 2 days on next time. 2 on the 3-4 off. The next cycle being 2 days as day 3 wasn’t great .

 

[balance seeker]

hydrocolon therapy daily for 24 days

 

[highserotonin90]

Your question shows why basically nobody can get better from these things. Cuz you are looking for a something.

It’s about connecting systems to make the full body run as a whole. As the body is a machine dependent on a bunch of enzymes that dictate where electrolytes , iron copper , amino acids go etc etc to form energy to literally turn the brain on. As the brain turns on (atp) more iron copper move out of organs into the blood where they need to be metabolized to make cortisol .

B12 dictates a lot of that. Thyroid does and for me it seems I get thyroid working through b12 and iodine. But I’m on TRT now and I needed hormonal support like dhea to get thyroid going in late 2024 when I began iodine based approach. But it really kinda transitioned more into a b12 TRT iodine approach carnitine biotin with them needed badly eventually.

I have a big 6 supplements next to TRT. They work together.

Meb12 adob12 iodine carnitine biotin zinc

But electrolytes need to happen with these and I consider calcium an electrolyte so I give it .

Pretty high carb diet but most carbs being fast acting orange juice sugars. I’ll drink cokes. I don’t care I do so well with sugars . But slow acting carbs I don’t love.

Supposedly this is what happens in chromium deficiency. Complex carbs just aren’t great.

I've had the same experience with simple sugars, even though they don't really make you feel full... on a systemic level, they seem to trigger more positive effects.

 

[RebelWithACause]

Starch/complex carbs work better for me later on the day to wind down. They are slower fuel pretty much. Take longer to digest especially in people with hypothyroidism. Probably why some people with hypothyroidism also crave more simple sugars/fruit sugars ("sweets") vs. starch to stabilize their blood sugars. But starch is more stable I find. Probably precisely because they take longer to digest. Same for fat (+protein combined).

 

[bruschi11]

If copper raises insulin. Which puts potassium in cell.

Iron raises aldosterone. Which puts sodium in the cell.

Estrogen receptor beta. B12 based. lowers aldosterone. Which keeps sodium from harming the cell.

I have had sodium soar in htmas the last few years when I go on hormones.

This adds up for my long term issues dating back to late 2022 when I started Hormoens b12.

Can’t let Aldosterone (sodium) exceeed cortisol (potassium).

It seems ERb is the key to that.

Freddd was onto something.

 

[bruschi11]

Ok… per chatgpt on Aldo

“At the same time, it generally:

• Retains water indirectly, which can increase blood volume and blood pressure
• Increases potassium excretion
• Increases hydrogen-ion excretion, sometimes contributing to metabolic alkalosis when aldosterone is excessive “

The hydrogen ion excretion—-> alkalosis = dead fat metabolism as need the hydrogen for fat metabolism.

Said hydrogen is the key to fluoride issues.

 

[highserotonin90]

Could a grayish skin tone indicate that the tissues are having difficulty receiving oxygen? Have you ever noticed whether your skin color changed depending on your state of health?

 

[bruschi11]

Could a grayish skin tone indicate that the tissues are having difficulty receiving oxygen? Have you ever noticed whether your skin color changed depending on your state of health?

I think so.

I’m Italian and had really strong tans growing up. When I got sick it slowly changed where I’d get less and less tan.

Now that methylation is working a bit. On my new approach. My tan is back with a vengeance .