MNK's Log. PSSD Recov 12-18mo 10', PFS recov 11m-16mo 18’. hEDS/AuDHD/Markets.
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i shd be a phd econ instantly analyzing well price axn from memory silver platinum us stocks btc etc.
but im bad at math and ya im not doing another four yr degree LOLLL
i shd be monetizing my podcast/ blogs... and making mns on my rants and books
but i need fking money to exist in this gay corporate technocratic oligarchical hellscape that our tranny incel school shooter baby eating/ raping
govts have forced onto us.
i will be rich and i will be young forever.
and i will never die
but even whales... die.
when i go, i rtn to the ocean.
you'll see me in the skiez.
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also keep treating me like a criminal canadian banks authorties
and ya ill ivy league law your ass into bankruptcy. or liquidate u when im at 10 figs later.
but im bad at math and ya im not doing another four yr degree LOLLL
i shd be monetizing my podcast/ blogs... and making mns on my rants and books
but i need fking money to exist in this gay corporate technocratic oligarchical hellscape that our tranny incel school shooter baby eating/ raping
govts have forced onto us.
i will be rich and i will be young forever.
and i will never die
but even whales... die.
when i go, i rtn to the ocean.
you'll see me in the skiez.
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also keep treating me like a criminal canadian banks authorties
and ya ill ivy league law your ass into bankruptcy. or liquidate u when im at 10 figs later.
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ILL get the funds i need.
and ill stay young looking forever
perfect hair density volume lashes brows
and leanness for genetics plus enhanced. dht. and sexual fn optimized too.
and financial and legal freedom. as a human being.
i hate it but women like some stubble i mean it looks good but i go stubble to full beard and there's some grey in like fking 10hrs or 24hrs at times if no HRT.
ill go to gym may shave but ya i put on clothes after just showering wiped off test and derma a bit so double the dose basically and took rad.
defs looking more aesthetic which is nice but i had perfect skin but depresn fkd me up, didn't wash 2x a day, now i shower 1.4x a day only bc of disability. it shd be 2x a day tho.
i actually am ripped 560-80R% of time its just fking up diet and water retn but sure i prolly have mid hi test mid hi estrogen or hi both but for rad140 fking up test but i need lower estrogen and
higher dht. but no estrogen = fuck my joints. too much = even crazier prolly. well ya.
too much dht = also bad for joints/ ligament laxity.
is the fingers subluxing the double dose of test? no i think randro 4andro sarms all .. and prollly anavar, dht comps do that too.
androgens do weaken conn tissue
and u rest and grow and tear down and recover muscle fibers,... faster than you do conn tissue. hence injuries when going natural and no longer as m of a superhero.
most of the less superhero stuff is well for sure hEDS (or if I have HSD, agn may be same disorder, maybe im not as flexible myb its bc of scoliosis or fusions or who knows but the 1/1mn neuro disorder, pssd, pfs.. i mean im pretty fking rare every other way, why wd i have 1/500 hsd and not 1/5000 hEDS possibly 1/3500)). Or well a rarer eds, maybe.
and ill stay young looking forever
perfect hair density volume lashes brows
and leanness for genetics plus enhanced. dht. and sexual fn optimized too.
and financial and legal freedom. as a human being.
i hate it but women like some stubble i mean it looks good but i go stubble to full beard and there's some grey in like fking 10hrs or 24hrs at times if no HRT.
ill go to gym may shave but ya i put on clothes after just showering wiped off test and derma a bit so double the dose basically and took rad.
defs looking more aesthetic which is nice but i had perfect skin but depresn fkd me up, didn't wash 2x a day, now i shower 1.4x a day only bc of disability. it shd be 2x a day tho.
i actually am ripped 560-80R% of time its just fking up diet and water retn but sure i prolly have mid hi test mid hi estrogen or hi both but for rad140 fking up test but i need lower estrogen and
higher dht. but no estrogen = fuck my joints. too much = even crazier prolly. well ya.
too much dht = also bad for joints/ ligament laxity.
is the fingers subluxing the double dose of test? no i think randro 4andro sarms all .. and prollly anavar, dht comps do that too.
androgens do weaken conn tissue
and u rest and grow and tear down and recover muscle fibers,... faster than you do conn tissue. hence injuries when going natural and no longer as m of a superhero.
most of the less superhero stuff is well for sure hEDS (or if I have HSD, agn may be same disorder, maybe im not as flexible myb its bc of scoliosis or fusions or who knows but the 1/1mn neuro disorder, pssd, pfs.. i mean im pretty fking rare every other way, why wd i have 1/500 hsd and not 1/5000 hEDS possibly 1/3500)). Or well a rarer eds, maybe.
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also i dont know last nite sex fn 85/10 w testes big better and feels better
but am... maybe that day or day before ya i mean 5-6/10 not pleasurable as m and couldn't feel the o
however less fluid and sarms will fuk sexual fn but also help it
maybe dex leaving system maybe lith leaving system longer term there dex is well that's taken longer term but leaves system daily.
maybe carbs.. but i have hi sexual fn even w just milk as carbs or as a treat on top of carnivore.
fkd up my stomach was the candy oh henry frozen bar helpful for gains prolly but bad for stomach helpful for sexual fn? i dont fking know but either
dex vasoconstrn or rad140 or pfs or just fucking no lh and fsh fk things up and yet like being ripped i mean sex fn and rippedness are their daily.
so what fks it up?
the hypermobility and dign issues and water retn and estrogenic comps: test cream, dermacrine, rad140 with no dht initiated to reduce estadiol... -- water retn/ not seeming ripped.
the sexual fn idk i think just infertility n never using hcg and the like, i work on overall fitness rather than think of pfs, and same w fitness/mobility, rather than think abt EDS (tho ya that's hard to totally ignore., but i gotta live w/ the latter foreverz).
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Test cream is good. even better w dht / dht derivs all that on hand stat.
but ya while it works and such i want to get married have kids sooner than later and yet... i mean, im gonna have to spend 1-2 yrs fixing fertilty. gonna get on Marek Health's protocol soon,
already had micronized prog and the b.. need the hcg.
dermacrine helps my anxiety and mood depresn.
I think sexual fn but i mean... im sure it does.
I think sexual fn at times fine on test cream alone.
better w/ rad140. surely better consistently more w. anavar and dht comps.
and after for a long time (if randro/4andro cycle results and the herbs and all that repeats with strong sexual fn like 1.5-2yrs later still)...
but whatever ill stay on hcg or better.
in essence so many psyche, hormonal, i guess cancer drugs too cause "chemical castration" and yeah I mean I'd like to avoid that and I think you should too....
but if this guy gets results and isn't painful/ harmful.... then perhaps go. Do a lot of research. I don't love Dr. Powell but surely he has helped some with this.
Good to be optimistic and realistic as we can be. Not get hopes up too too much but not live in despair (when reaching out medically for some rare insane illness, like PFS - Admiral).]
my sexual fn also could be POIS/ porn a bit but ya i mean 4-5d a year. down from hrs a day. and down from like need needing internet blockers but ya i use greyscale color filters/ similar and did delete x dot com etc... so ya i mean im hyperactive and hyper addicted to a lot of stuff. 99% of relapses are fantasy and non nudes but sometimes model videos. and ya that's bad. or fantasizing abt someone i met or just idk force of habit need to cum. but i want it to work best so i shd abstain a yr straight but its fking hard.
but am... maybe that day or day before ya i mean 5-6/10 not pleasurable as m and couldn't feel the o
however less fluid and sarms will fuk sexual fn but also help it
maybe dex leaving system maybe lith leaving system longer term there dex is well that's taken longer term but leaves system daily.
maybe carbs.. but i have hi sexual fn even w just milk as carbs or as a treat on top of carnivore.
fkd up my stomach was the candy oh henry frozen bar helpful for gains prolly but bad for stomach helpful for sexual fn? i dont fking know but either
dex vasoconstrn or rad140 or pfs or just fucking no lh and fsh fk things up and yet like being ripped i mean sex fn and rippedness are their daily.
so what fks it up?
the hypermobility and dign issues and water retn and estrogenic comps: test cream, dermacrine, rad140 with no dht initiated to reduce estadiol... -- water retn/ not seeming ripped.
the sexual fn idk i think just infertility n never using hcg and the like, i work on overall fitness rather than think of pfs, and same w fitness/mobility, rather than think abt EDS (tho ya that's hard to totally ignore., but i gotta live w/ the latter foreverz).
--RE: ON NOFAP:
Test cream is good. even better w dht / dht derivs all that on hand stat.
but ya while it works and such i want to get married have kids sooner than later and yet... i mean, im gonna have to spend 1-2 yrs fixing fertilty. gonna get on Marek Health's protocol soon,
already had micronized prog and the b.. need the hcg.
dermacrine helps my anxiety and mood depresn.
I think sexual fn but i mean... im sure it does.
I think sexual fn at times fine on test cream alone.
better w/ rad140. surely better consistently more w. anavar and dht comps.
and after for a long time (if randro/4andro cycle results and the herbs and all that repeats with strong sexual fn like 1.5-2yrs later still)...
but whatever ill stay on hcg or better.
in essence so many psyche, hormonal, i guess cancer drugs too cause "chemical castration" and yeah I mean I'd like to avoid that and I think you should too....
but if this guy gets results and isn't painful/ harmful.... then perhaps go. Do a lot of research. I don't love Dr. Powell but surely he has helped some with this.
Good to be optimistic and realistic as we can be. Not get hopes up too too much but not live in despair (when reaching out medically for some rare insane illness, like PFS - Admiral).]
my sexual fn also could be POIS/ porn a bit but ya i mean 4-5d a year. down from hrs a day. and down from like need needing internet blockers but ya i use greyscale color filters/ similar and did delete x dot com etc... so ya i mean im hyperactive and hyper addicted to a lot of stuff. 99% of relapses are fantasy and non nudes but sometimes model videos. and ya that's bad. or fantasizing abt someone i met or just idk force of habit need to cum. but i want it to work best so i shd abstain a yr straight but its fking hard.
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telling this dumbass frd of mine that. this homo attkd me at gym and i put him in his place
and he brought 2 homos w him, his bf's. told my brother my frds that get into fights everywhere would understand that I DEESCELATED and would destroy those idiots
and that just bc i get in altercations and or am accosted frequently (in past, in toronto, when i was hyper/hypomanic). just bc i understand the streets doesn't mean im sketchy.
u want a cockboy soyboy lawyer?? or a street smart lawyer? same w/ trading. i never started no fights.
i ain't want to fight but these gay kids tried to start shyt i scared the shit out of one. im still a nice guy
i try and hide my krziness around attractive females that i like (so usually i dont, i dont give a fuck son). u hide, i ain't gotta.
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and he brought 2 homos w him, his bf's. told my brother my frds that get into fights everywhere would understand that I DEESCELATED and would destroy those idiots
and that just bc i get in altercations and or am accosted frequently (in past, in toronto, when i was hyper/hypomanic). just bc i understand the streets doesn't mean im sketchy.
u want a cockboy soyboy lawyer?? or a street smart lawyer? same w/ trading. i never started no fights.
i ain't want to fight but these gay kids tried to start shyt i scared the shit out of one. im still a nice guy
i try and hide my krziness around attractive females that i like (so usually i dont, i dont give a fuck son). u hide, i ain't gotta.
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every fking day some 2-10k bill
window washing who cares fk that guy where is he im trading and trying to lift at home gym n play forza and drink water and try on outfits
furnace cleaning this n that
fix that
fix the fking roof snow damage/wind damage...
fix this fix that
like can i just fking work in silence
my mom forced me toronto trip wh was fine but i have 8 figs pending. im back. it was so short.
cdnt see my biz partner, nor any of my old frds.
im booking next trip and flying am... or at nite where i ... went to bed early or smthing.
anyways murder all my trds. and lift smthing heavy. and finish meditating nearly done. wrkt here n extnl gym? perhaps.
the fuck i gain muscle n fat quickly and only muscle on gear.. recomping but ya this isnt gna be like first cycles. and also ya i cant train 4-6 x a week unless lifting lower weights, cannot afford to fk up my rite ankle and wrist. well i mean ankle is fkd up permanently... but.. idk cant afford knees ankles wrists fkd up... ideally only 2-3 injured at a time and minorly.
window washing who cares fk that guy where is he im trading and trying to lift at home gym n play forza and drink water and try on outfits
furnace cleaning this n that
fix that
fix the fking roof snow damage/wind damage...
fix this fix that
like can i just fking work in silence
my mom forced me toronto trip wh was fine but i have 8 figs pending. im back. it was so short.
cdnt see my biz partner, nor any of my old frds.
im booking next trip and flying am... or at nite where i ... went to bed early or smthing.
anyways murder all my trds. and lift smthing heavy. and finish meditating nearly done. wrkt here n extnl gym? perhaps.
the fuck i gain muscle n fat quickly and only muscle on gear.. recomping but ya this isnt gna be like first cycles. and also ya i cant train 4-6 x a week unless lifting lower weights, cannot afford to fk up my rite ankle and wrist. well i mean ankle is fkd up permanently... but.. idk cant afford knees ankles wrists fkd up... ideally only 2-3 injured at a time and minorly.
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fk outta test a couple days
been lifting hard.
but ill get it friday or monday, my 400 dollar test cream vs 20-80 for vials. not cov by insur. fk me.
hurt. defs wants it.
glass joint, liquid imagination paper joint, and cannabis in coffee, advil, turmeric for now.
ill quit test cream n derma temporarily and rad, to de estrogenize...
then ill be more ripped.
crypto mean coin whale called me baddie mos ago
and babes and gay guys like me at the gym nearby
the gym w all those girls except non fitness girls, is downtown
i go there soon
for now i trade, take care of the other business side of stuff, and workout, but for nows i rest and plays... and i monitor .. 3x and 3x then 3x this shyt for some shyt to wrk with. fk me.
been lifting hard.
but ill get it friday or monday, my 400 dollar test cream vs 20-80 for vials. not cov by insur. fk me.
hurt. defs wants it.
glass joint, liquid imagination paper joint, and cannabis in coffee, advil, turmeric for now.
ill quit test cream n derma temporarily and rad, to de estrogenize...
then ill be more ripped.
crypto mean coin whale called me baddie mos ago
and babes and gay guys like me at the gym nearby
the gym w all those girls except non fitness girls, is downtown
i go there soon
for now i trade, take care of the other business side of stuff, and workout, but for nows i rest and plays... and i monitor .. 3x and 3x then 3x this shyt for some shyt to wrk with. fk me.
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cant my brother j send me anavar scripts and like 2k worth of medical tape lol . no.
the guys a rockstar. you're an inspirn to all (cool hot couple, hot ukrn girl at gym more recent idk 2-5d ago that one, you are a movie star, when did u become so ripped). ppl said to me recent days. first was yrs ago. but that's nice. uh hu then whys my life on fucking fire all the time???? fuck me how the fk i solve all probs immediately and workout heres and main gym. and go meet girl downtown 13km away, and solve legal and financial shyt, and work on myown stuff, without getting agitated w business prtnr, let alone other mofos? and why cant i do any govt shyt at nite, online?? and why do i need to fucking operate in 9 to 5 world when im fucking self employed. i did this shyt to be a whale and stay pretty and yet life's still such a bitch at times. i fuck up, i may ruin both ankles and wrists, like this is krazy. lol. older family frdsand stuff ur ignoring hello i have a disability... ppl are fking making me krazy. i go play forza and workout soon. ya i look good but i need to become perfect. a perfect godtier mammal. a lean sexually charged/ sexually deviant whale.
the guys a rockstar. you're an inspirn to all (cool hot couple, hot ukrn girl at gym more recent idk 2-5d ago that one, you are a movie star, when did u become so ripped). ppl said to me recent days. first was yrs ago. but that's nice. uh hu then whys my life on fucking fire all the time???? fuck me how the fk i solve all probs immediately and workout heres and main gym. and go meet girl downtown 13km away, and solve legal and financial shyt, and work on myown stuff, without getting agitated w business prtnr, let alone other mofos? and why cant i do any govt shyt at nite, online?? and why do i need to fucking operate in 9 to 5 world when im fucking self employed. i did this shyt to be a whale and stay pretty and yet life's still such a bitch at times. i fuck up, i may ruin both ankles and wrists, like this is krazy. lol. older family frdsand stuff ur ignoring hello i have a disability... ppl are fking making me krazy. i go play forza and workout soon. ya i look good but i need to become perfect. a perfect godtier mammal. a lean sexually charged/ sexually deviant whale.
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is this lady on drugs or smthing???
i said my neck dislocated. from the vax and ya i was exercising during many various injuries, but that was an issue exacerbated by a fking defective-collagen-disability, it was the vax....
anyways, oh u alm die all the time "stop doing drugs. stop exercising so much. actually eat,: or "get laid" if pissed off depressed, when i was hiding my neck moving all over the place, and inability to walk.
that was other ppl not this lady and that was ages ago, telling me to get laid when disability was peak minus the peak in pfs crash.
ppl are retards. and ya i know im hypersensitive but ppl are mean. telling me to ge ta job when i was harmed w/ a tbi.
this fmly frd says i look like a movie star.
so ya ive gotten that a lot of times, rockstar, young as fk, and stuff. an inspiration to us all this ukrn gym woman said.
that's nice.
and ya thanks for compliment but no it isnt just over exercising.
it's defective collagen
jesus christ
i hate explng fk all.
even ppl that are on your side are half deaf or in their own world anyways.
need more fresh air, tiny bit more weed. i workout home gym + extrnl gym , and shower first agn.
or i play forza five workout at home. and fking short this current bs, make back some cash... and fking then 10x that and 2 x then i got enuff for some visa payments, paying a frd back, and any
last emergency cost for this other shyt, im wrking on.
i said my neck dislocated. from the vax and ya i was exercising during many various injuries, but that was an issue exacerbated by a fking defective-collagen-disability, it was the vax....
anyways, oh u alm die all the time "stop doing drugs. stop exercising so much. actually eat,: or "get laid" if pissed off depressed, when i was hiding my neck moving all over the place, and inability to walk.
that was other ppl not this lady and that was ages ago, telling me to get laid when disability was peak minus the peak in pfs crash.
ppl are retards. and ya i know im hypersensitive but ppl are mean. telling me to ge ta job when i was harmed w/ a tbi.
this fmly frd says i look like a movie star.
so ya ive gotten that a lot of times, rockstar, young as fk, and stuff. an inspiration to us all this ukrn gym woman said.
that's nice.
and ya thanks for compliment but no it isnt just over exercising.
it's defective collagen
jesus christ
i hate explng fk all.
even ppl that are on your side are half deaf or in their own world anyways.
need more fresh air, tiny bit more weed. i workout home gym + extrnl gym , and shower first agn.
or i play forza five workout at home. and fking short this current bs, make back some cash... and fking then 10x that and 2 x then i got enuff for some visa payments, paying a frd back, and any
last emergency cost for this other shyt, im wrking on.
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jesus fk.
i wish u all well.
i lost my sony headphns fuck me...
so its hard to mtn
stoicism playlist - meditation - workout 1/1 or - workout 1 and 2 - and my own trades, and wake up 1-2am. been waking 8 7 5pm fuck. but slept a lot only bc of weed and or lith.
spacing out mood meds from exercise and performance meds (dex, test, dermacrine, rad/anavar/dht).
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with ADHD/ being eccentric
oh break up your fault
injured nearly dead your fault
graduate late your fault
no1 understands what the fk u do for a living, and that's also your fault somehow
PTSD over NDE's also my fault. anyways ill work on trauma and marry an 11/10 but see abt some chicks this girl i really miss but i cant ex
\be relaxed when legal financial and well over seven figs is pending.
im going krzy at times
i distance myself and meditate a lot, then i deal w / ppl.
whether business, the gym, going outside, family, women, frds, new frds, work, well i mean i wake up and work and meditate but i really hate dealing
with arguments/ stress, wo my meds/ meditating a bit, at lst some test, dex, or weed... then wait then dex, and then HRT.
--actually no. test --dermacrine --weed ideally -- dex, later rad or var. but ya order changes at times, as does my waking time. im fixing that.
been like 20yrs++ my bro and i nocturnal tho ya i mean he was a resident in a competitive surgical prgm.
I am a trader tho, its still hard.. esp w the Audhd and all.
anyways, im sorting out some more. and making myself a perfect ish day, ev day, later perfect when i get the girl that matters most.
i wish u all well.
i lost my sony headphns fuck me...
so its hard to mtn
stoicism playlist - meditation - workout 1/1 or - workout 1 and 2 - and my own trades, and wake up 1-2am. been waking 8 7 5pm fuck. but slept a lot only bc of weed and or lith.
spacing out mood meds from exercise and performance meds (dex, test, dermacrine, rad/anavar/dht).
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with ADHD/ being eccentric
oh break up your fault
injured nearly dead your fault
graduate late your fault
no1 understands what the fk u do for a living, and that's also your fault somehow
PTSD over NDE's also my fault. anyways ill work on trauma and marry an 11/10 but see abt some chicks this girl i really miss but i cant ex
\be relaxed when legal financial and well over seven figs is pending.
im going krzy at times
i distance myself and meditate a lot, then i deal w / ppl.
whether business, the gym, going outside, family, women, frds, new frds, work, well i mean i wake up and work and meditate but i really hate dealing
with arguments/ stress, wo my meds/ meditating a bit, at lst some test, dex, or weed... then wait then dex, and then HRT.
--actually no. test --dermacrine --weed ideally -- dex, later rad or var. but ya order changes at times, as does my waking time. im fixing that.
been like 20yrs++ my bro and i nocturnal tho ya i mean he was a resident in a competitive surgical prgm.
I am a trader tho, its still hard.. esp w the Audhd and all.
anyways, im sorting out some more. and making myself a perfect ish day, ev day, later perfect when i get the girl that matters most.
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stoned less smart. rad less smart. and ev1 loves me.
drink ev1 loves well i mean to an extent... not always the best drinker.
be dumb = retard maxing = max women.
and yet**** you need to be smart to not die, get murdered, go to prison, win your trades, do well academically.
fuck.
so i was onl;y on dex for yrs
needed less, and more test/dht.
and some fking weed/ psychedelics, hella kt tape and braces too. like at 20 i needed that. well not the test so much till 27 -29 or so, but ya earlier better
25 i shd have been on gear i alrdy trained 9 yrs by then
remembering like 90 x stood up wmn or dissapeared ran away usually
i was hiding EDS/ ctpsd... autism i guess
fuck my life
and ya disability parts, it is scary and i mean i dont look disabled till meds or till hurt or i move the wrong way.
im stoned, and some dex but wrong order so not the smartest, and also rad140 makes u a bit less intelligent perhaps.
although it has some focus like/ concentration like benefits. prolly being exhausted and hurt, and needing to make back funds in own personal trades,
and ppl constantly over at the house, and not having my fav headphones to meditate, game, and listen to music (i.e. zone the fuck out/ lock the fuck in, hyperfocus, help AuDHD), that's what is fking
making me messed up in terms of anxiety.
same time, rad makes u more depressed and anxious.....
but yes a lot stronger, taking 15-25mg a couple x a week but not for long.
insane nausea with things like zinc, carbs that are bad (not sweet potatoes, yogurt, arugula... i mean like candy. american/canadian oh henry i.e. poison).
and horrible hunger pangs w carbs
none or near none without em.
ah whatever i gotta run take care
still cant run my life young youthful good looking. really smart. hard working.
none of that matters... except setting your approach to life and work ethic to optimize for your goals.
i mean above is good but ya my life still is fkd in some ways.
ASD/ADHD, cptsd. relnships. soon tho more chill and more time for fun.
drink ev1 loves well i mean to an extent... not always the best drinker.
be dumb = retard maxing = max women.
and yet**** you need to be smart to not die, get murdered, go to prison, win your trades, do well academically.
fuck.
so i was onl;y on dex for yrs
needed less, and more test/dht.
and some fking weed/ psychedelics, hella kt tape and braces too. like at 20 i needed that. well not the test so much till 27 -29 or so, but ya earlier better
25 i shd have been on gear i alrdy trained 9 yrs by then
remembering like 90 x stood up wmn or dissapeared ran away usually
i was hiding EDS/ ctpsd... autism i guess
fuck my life
and ya disability parts, it is scary and i mean i dont look disabled till meds or till hurt or i move the wrong way.
im stoned, and some dex but wrong order so not the smartest, and also rad140 makes u a bit less intelligent perhaps.
although it has some focus like/ concentration like benefits. prolly being exhausted and hurt, and needing to make back funds in own personal trades,
and ppl constantly over at the house, and not having my fav headphones to meditate, game, and listen to music (i.e. zone the fuck out/ lock the fuck in, hyperfocus, help AuDHD), that's what is fking
making me messed up in terms of anxiety.
same time, rad makes u more depressed and anxious.....
but yes a lot stronger, taking 15-25mg a couple x a week but not for long.
insane nausea with things like zinc, carbs that are bad (not sweet potatoes, yogurt, arugula... i mean like candy. american/canadian oh henry i.e. poison).
and horrible hunger pangs w carbs
none or near none without em.
ah whatever i gotta run take care
still cant run my life young youthful good looking. really smart. hard working.
none of that matters... except setting your approach to life and work ethic to optimize for your goals.
i mean above is good but ya my life still is fkd in some ways.
ASD/ADHD, cptsd. relnships. soon tho more chill and more time for fun.
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