Stupidfreak PFS Log

[stupidfreak]

Hello guys,im a 23 years old male(currently) whom has been suffering from PFS for quite a while now.Since my initial crush i had zero improvements to my symptoms:FULL impotende and 0 libido,occasional testie pain,anxiety,no motivation to do anything and to live,insomnia and severe depression.

Since my balls and penis do not work at all,i lost all attachments to my current gender.I feel defective,pathetic as a man(i would even prefer beqing a eunuch rather than this)and i want to start MtF HRT and have sex reassigment surgery.This seems to me the only way to live a semi-pleasant life and the other option is only suicide.However,im afraid that my endocrine system is so fucked up that i wont be able to respond to it.I dont know where to seek help,propeciahelp is pretty much dead and im my lifes lowest

 

[Crushed]

I don't think that trying to have reassignment surgery is going to make you feel better about what has happened. I understand your feelings of being pathetic as a man but I don't think trying to reassign your gender is going to help. I think you should try protocols you find here to see if you can regain your former health.

 

[stupidfreak]

I don't think that trying to have reassignment surgery is going to make you feel better about what has happened. I understand your feelings of being pathetic as a man but I don't think trying to reassign your gender is going to help. I think you should try protocols you find here to see if you can regain your former health.

Im set on it.I will never have my former health back,forget about it.I understand when people recover(somewhat) from ed and lack of libido,not from aching shrunk testies,limp penis and zero libido(and after classical crash).I tried T HRT,doesnt seem to work,i will never have healty T levels for a male(what is more important,i will never be able to respond th them properly).

I understand your sceptisism,but i have been thinking about it for quite a while and im serious.The only problem is i dont know how will my body react,if it will respond to therapy and also finding right drugs for it.

As i said,its either MtF with some succsess or suicide.I cannot continue to live like this.I would get rid of my testies right now if it wouldnt mean complete chaos for my endocrine system

 

[Goose12]

I agree with crush, don't do it. You will feel like a man again if you start following a protocol. If it was me I would start a three day cycle of RU. That would help lower your anxiety right away and then jump on cds protocol. Traditional medicine is not going to help.

I don't know the stats on hand but people with sexual reassignment surgery have a suicide rate of around 50%!

 

[stupidfreak]

I agree with crush, don't do it. You will feel like a man again if you start following a protocol. If it was me I would start a three day cycle of RU. That would help lower your anxiety right away and then jump on cds protocol. Traditional medicine is not going to help.

I don't know the stats on hand but people with sexual reassignment surgery have a suicide rate of around 50%!

Im sorry,but i think those protocols are mostly uneffective in most people with PFS

Im going to have 100% suicide if i dont do it.Im done with being male,i dont want that,i will never be happy this way.Not to say i will be happy being a woman,but its all beter than being me.1 year of complete and utter hell,nothing helps,wasted money on doctors,stupid protocols and miracles from propeciahelp,sorry,im done with treatments for my condition.


Im here only to know if my body will react to female hormones and i will ne able to transition.

Understand that i always was bisexual and somewhat genderfluid.

 

[Goose12]

Im sorry,but i think those protocols are mostly uneffective in most people with PFS

Im going to have 100% suicide if i dont do it.Im done with being male,i dont want that,i will never be happy this way.Not to say i will be happy being a woman,but its all beter than being me.1 year of complete and utter hell,nothing helps,wasted money on doctors,stupid protocols and miracles from propeciahelp,sorry,im done with treatments for my condition.


Im here only to know if my body will react to female hormones and i will ne able to transition.

Understand that i always was bisexual and somewhat genderfluid.

6 months ago I was impotent, shrunken balls, weak orgasms, almost no ejaculate, severe anxiety, insomnia, and severe digestion issues. It's taken a while but I have reversed everything but low labido, which seems to be the last thing you get back. Just read some logs on the site and you will find others who have made progress and cured themselves.

Even if you want reassignment surgery or any pleasure in life you need to go this route. Exogenous hormones can't help you become a man they won't help you become a women either.
Here are some other helpful sites.
Post Finasteride Syndrome

Total Male Optimization

At least try a protocol so you can get rid of your anxiety.

 

[stupidfreak]

6 months ago I was impotent, shrunken balls, weak orgasms, almost no ejaculate, severe anxiety, insomnia, and severe digestion issues. It's taken a while but I have reversed everything but low labido, which seems to be the last thing you get back. Just read some logs on the site and you will find others who have made progress and cured themselves.

Even if you want reassignment surgery or any pleasure in life you need to go this route. Exogenous hormones can't help you become a man they won't help you become a women either.
Here are some other helpful sites.
Post Finasteride Syndrome

Total Male Optimization

At least try a protocol so you can get rid of your anxiety.

Impotent but weak orgasms?I cant get my dick up even slightly,its completely and utterly limp.had no orgasms in a year(had a great sex life before),no night ejaculations or wet dreams,ejaculate only comes out with my pee

RU seems dangerous to me,anyway

 

[stupidfreak]

Also you dont seem to have taken fin.And i thought cdnuts was a scam?

 

[barbaar]

Seriously try RU or Ella. Before I did I was convinced nothing would be able to fix me and I was permanently damaged. They didn't fix me but it was a step in the right direction. Many others here have made great improvements, just look around. Once you get the thought of this being permanent out of your head it becomes much easier.

 

[barbaar]

And don't get me wrong, our situation is massively f*cked up. This is the hardest thing I've had to deal with in my entire life, and I'm sure the same goes for many others. But it's not hopeless anymore.

 

[stupidfreak]

And don't get me wrong, our situation is massively f*cked up. This is the hardest thing I've had to deal with in my entire life, and I'm sure the same goes for many others. But it's not hopeless anymore.

I doubt anyone with this shit wouldnt say its the worst thing they have expirienced.

But still,i dont belive in recovery anymore.I saw people post about improving,but only people,who had some libido and some form of erection.Not to count really shady looking fellas like cdnuts.

Still,my question is up.I dont knowm if anybody with pfs have transitioned,i saw a thread about one person(something mckee something),but it seemed to me that it was a hoax because since she lost her lawsuit there was no info or uptades about her situation and her website became a pharma scam site.Also not to mention she didnt resemble a female and resembeled a man with a bad wig.

 

[Goose12]

Also you dont seem to have taken fin.And i thought cdnuts was a scam?

Saw palmetto is a progestin just like fin and deca. I still have times can't believe an herb did this to me but there are others saw palmetto did the same thing to.

Cd is not a scam, I and others have had success with the protocol.

I have ran ru three times and have had no issues. There have been studies using high doses with no issues.

 

[stupidfreak]

Saw palmetto is a progestin just like fin and deca. I still have times can't believe an herb did this to me but there are others saw palmetto did the same thing to.

Cd is not a scam, I and others have had success with the protocol.

I have ran ru three times and have had no issues. There have been studies using high doses with no issues.

Im glad youre better.Dam,why the fuck are we so unlucky?Odds are less likely than being hit by a train,for fuck sake.

How much will full protocol and RU cost,anyway?

 

[barbaar]

I doubt anyone with this **** wouldnt say its the worst thing they have expirienced.

But still,i dont belive in recovery anymore.I saw people post about improving,but only people,who had some libido and some form of erection.Not to count really shady looking fellas like cdnuts.

Still,my question is up.I dont knowm if anybody with pfs have transitioned,i saw a thread about one person(something mckee something),but it seemed to me that it was a hoax because since she lost her lawsuit there was no info or uptades about her situation and her website became a pharma scam site.Also not to mention she didnt resemble a female and resembeled a man with a bad wig.

Try RU, then see how you feel about it. If you're going to do something drastic like transitioning you might as well exhaust all easier options first right?

Besides, I don't know if transitioning would get rid of PFS. What if afterwards you still have all the mental sides? Try fixing all that stuff first (it really is possible, trust me). Then do whatever you still want to do.

 

[stupidfreak]

Try RU, then see how you feel about it. If you're going to do something drastic like transitioning you might as well exhaust all easier options first right?

Besides, I don't know if transitioning would get rid of PFS. What if afterwards you still have all the mental sides? Try fixing all that stuff first (it really is possible, trust me). Then do whatever you still want to do.

I would guess fixing sides means taking a life long commitment to a hormone altering drug?I heard that somewhere.*JK*

Well,tell me about your condition,what sides you had and how much youve improved.Would be glad to hear somebody with this shit can get better

 

[barbaar]

I would guess fixing sides means taking a life long commitment to a hormone altering drug?I heard that somewhere.*JK*

Well,tell me about your condition,what sides you had and how much youve improved.Would be glad to hear somebody with this **** can get better

If you mean take testosterone, don't. It'll just screw you up more.

I'm post SSRI. 0 libido, dead dick, anhedonia, emotional numbing, extreme depersonalization, brain fog, memory problems, all that fun stuff went on for 2 years.

I mostly fixed depersonalization with crocus sativus extract. Took about half a year but I kinda feel like I "exist" again. Brain fog improved too. Memory problems still there but not as bad anymore. Emotional blunting and anhedonia are still there, but have improved as well.

Ella gave me a lot of feeling back in my dick, although it didn't last long once I stopped taking it. At least it's a sign nothing is permanently damaged. Baseline improved too, but not where I want it to be yet. I can usually get hard now if I try, just no psychogenic erections yet. That brings me to my last problem, 0 libido. Everyone says that's usually the last thing to come back, and I've seen minor improvements. Ups and downs honestly.

It's still a struggle, and a long fight. Just take it day by day and you'll get there eventually.

 

[stupidfreak]

If you mean take testosterone, don't. It'll just screw you up more.

I'm post SSRI. 0 libido, dead ****, anhedonia, emotional numbing, extreme depersonalization, brain fog, memory problems, all that fun stuff went on for 2 years.

I mostly fixed depersonalization with crocus sativus extract. Took about half a year but I kinda feel like I "exist" again. Brain fog improved too. Memory problems still there but not as bad anymore. Emotional blunting and anhedonia are still there, but have improved as well.

Ella gave me a lot of feeling back in my ****, although it didn't last long once I stopped taking it. At least it's a sign nothing is permanently damaged. Baseline improved too, but not where I want it to be yet. I can usually get hard now if I try, just no psychogenic erections yet. That brings me to my last problem, 0 libido. Everyone says that's usually the last thing to come back, and I've seen minor improvements. Ups and downs honestly.

It's still a struggle, and a long fight. Just take it day by day and you'll get there eventually.

I joked about RU.Isnt this like abortion drug anyway?Is this forum centered around this thing?Seems like people here are trying to cure everything with it.

Ssri.Damn.My with acd and psychosis took em for some time.What was your reason?

Still things you have described are not close to full recovery potence-wise.I doubt people with our shit can ever recover from it.Our endocrine systems(and brains,since you took neurone connection altering drug) have suffered greatly and figuring out what is wrong seems almost impossible.I know i cant respond to T and DHT properly,probably cant sinthesize them properly,and hell knows how many other hormones.

Anyway,you seem like a person whomunderstands this,is there a chance i respond to mtf hrt?

Fuck me my balls hurt.I havent had a sleep in past 30 hours and cat get it now.I would love to get rid of insomnia.

 

[TubZy]

I joked about RU.Isnt this like abortion drug anyway?Is this forum centered around this thing?Seems like people here are tryong to cure everything with it.

Ssri.Damn.My with acd and psychosis took em for some time.What was your reason?

Still things you have described are not close to full recovery potence-wise.I doubt people with our **** can ever recover from it.Our endocrine systems(and brains,since you took neurone connection altering drug) have suffered greatly and figuring out what is wrong seems almost impossible.I know i cant

RU is dangerous? dude you are planning to have a sex change...there are multiple studies here that are posted showing much higher dosages and longer lengths of people using it safely and fixing their HPTA axis

Why don't you spend a few hundred bucks order some RU and try it. You could honestly feel much better and even give you hope and provide you to think clearly. I know many things you tried in the past brought no relief to your condition leaving you hopeless but I think trying RU would be worth it man. A few hundred bucks or even less is nothing compared going through with a sex change surgery. I know it something you don't want to hear but it is worth a try man considering you haven't even tried what many people have gotten much better on here first

 

[stupidfreak]

RU is dangerous? dude you are planning to have a sex change...

Why don't you spend a few hundred bucks order some RU and try it. You could honestly feel much better and even give you hope and provide you to think clearly. I know many things you tried in the past brought no relief to your condition but I think trying RU would be worth it man. A few hundred bucks or even less is nothing compared going through with a sex change surgery.

Well theres real people who have got both mtf hrt and sex change surgery,and only thing i know about ru is that you guys on this forum love it and that irs a abortion drug

Edit:i have a lot of edits on my post since its really hard to type for me now

Edit:and ah,its anti astrogen isnt it?

 

[barbaar]

I joked about RU.Isnt this like abortion drug anyway?Is this forum centered around this thing?Seems like people here are trying to cure everything with it.

Ssri.Damn.My with acd and psychosis took em for some time.What was your reason?

Still things you have described are not close to full recovery potence-wise.I doubt people with our **** can ever recover from it.Our endocrine systems(and brains,since you took neurone connection altering drug) have suffered greatly and figuring out what is wrong seems almost impossible.I know i cant respond to T and DHT properly,probably cant sinthesize them properly,and hell knows how many other hormones.

Anyway,you seem like a person whomunderstands this,is there a chance i respond to mtf hrt?

**** me my balls hurt.I havent had a sleep in past 30 hours and cat get it now.I would love to get rid of insomnia.

I took an SSRI because of anxiety, depression, and panic attacks caused by add meds. fuck psych medications lol, I'm so glad I'm off everything now, even if uni is 10x harder.

You're right, I'm not where I want to be yet, but getting there. Seriously I had the same dark thoughts you're having now but I promise they're bullshit. Nothing is permanently damaged. More than a few people have made full recoveries already, that wouldn't be possible if there was permanent damage if you follow basic logic.

Try RU, make a log. Try fixing alkalosis, see where that gets you.