Fazed22 log

[Fazed22]

I felt some connection when I was getting a lot better, maybe it was around TEI. I am not sure. I meditated a lot and felt some connection to the universe. Maybe just from healing an ungodly condition (and then being thankful to be alive and feel the wind in my hair, make a cup of espresso, smile at people, see people that liked me, just go for a walk... listen to music). The simple things made me so happy in 2019. I felt so grateful to be alive. Should have continued tei fuck.

Even when I did takeout or ate a bit differently, I almost always had cooked veg with dinner (and one or 2 meals a a day or so, or a snack and sometimes dinner at night, staggered in hours of 20-22 hrs after fasting or longer). I did that for like 19-20 months or so... maybe only quit around winter or end of 2019, cuz I was studying. Maybe not, maybe I continued well into 2020.
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That is intense, minerals actually got you to go to church.

What kind of veggies do you cook? I like spinach, tomatoes, arugula. I don't know if those were all good for TEI, I think they were fine and I posted my diet a lot back in the day and people said it was good.
Spinach was good for electrolyte protocol that was here. I just did simplified version once I stopped making the solutions. I think it was himalayan pink sea salt, a lot of spinach and mg, b1, b2 maybe? I don't remember, but I posted I was doing it so many times in my second log which no longer exists. that was when I felt beyond cured. Wish everything worked here what the hell. I don't blame Tubzy of course, it is hard losing all that stuff tho. I found some stuff on internet archives maybe, but yeah I am focusing going forward.

IDK if it was GOD per se. Sure at times, but more a connection to the universe and the nature for me. I am more into that, being a pisces. connection to the water, the earth, the air, fire, and the stars.
I was into science and pretty atheist or similar too... still may be but going thru horrible illnesses, you come out spiritual. Same time I've seen people that have horrid conditions that make me not blv in God or at least people around me and yeah I get that too (certain cancers etc).

I felt the connection god for the first time in my life when I started having pressure cooked carrots,celery, butternut squash, sometimes swede and daikon but because I was having issues with sulfur veg at the time I way overdid the beta carotene (pro vitamin A) and was having 8-10 carrots a day. Anyway after a month of eating like that I was orange and had severe blood sugar issues (couldn't tolerate fruit juice or sugar at all anymore) and it felt like I had pre diabetes but other than that I did feel great still, I found out about the Vit A toxicity stuff causing diabetes, cholestasis and it made perfect sense to my situation. So I stopped the carrots and butternut squash, celery and went low vit A but that gave me the most brutal dumping symptoms for a few weeks from all the stored Vit A and I felt absolutely awful as if someone had unleashed the gates of hell upon my body. Anyway after that bad period was over my blood sugar issues resolved and I could have sugar or fructose without it feeling damaging anymore.

The main reason why I never felt a connection to god before the cooked veg, was because I was always eating raw veg before that like raw carrots, celery, arugula, romaine lettuce and this wasn't giving me any minerals as Wilson says raw vegetable fibers are almost impossible for humans to digest and extract the nutrients from even if you are using digestive enzymes. I was also eating fruit, rice, bread, meat, eggs, fish in addition to the raw veg but my mineral levels back then were so bad everything bottomed out completely.

Anyway I avoid carrots now and still don't feel great when I eat them now, when I eat cooked veg I eat cauliflower, onions, white potatoes, cabbage, parsnips, asparagus. Getting organic is very important otherwise you're just having glyphosate and other pesticides.

Doing a short dry fast now as I've had some blood sugar issues last few days, dry fasting is something I never do only ever water fasting. But water restriction is supposed to activate FXR which is what I want to do Activating FXR & LXR for fun and health

 

[Fazed22]

Completed an 19 hour dry fast, felt brain fog setting in around the 18th hour like my brain didn't have any nutrients/fuel so I ended it, I don't see the point in going further than that when in that state, how would healing take place?

 

[MNK99]

Nice... IDK man they are healing tho but... they're supposed to remove brain fog, more aptly. You did good, but I mean sometimes I fell asleep and dry fasted... by accident in hot summers. I like water fasting a lot better. People do 2-3 maybe 4-5 days I am not sure about that tho. It is dangerousy... but maybe 4-5 days is like 12-15 days, or some will claim one day is like a week of water fasting (I really don't think so, but maybe for some people).

A nice experiment at least.

But I think you need longer. I mean isn't it just an intermittent fast where you forgot to drink liquids. It is hard no doubt... but +/- beneficial. Maybe you feel better, I don't know. I hope you do.

 

[Fazed22]

Nice... IDK man they are healing tho but... they're supposed to remove brain fog, more aptly. You did good, but I mean sometimes I fell asleep and dry fasted... by accident in hot summers. I like water fasting a lot better. People do 2-3 maybe 4-5 days I am not sure about that tho. It is dangerousy... but maybe 4-5 days is like 12-15 days, or some will claim one day is like a week of water fasting (I really don't think so, but maybe for some people).

A nice experiment at least.

But I think you need longer. I mean isn't it just an intermittent fast where you forgot to drink liquids. It is hard no doubt... but +/- beneficial. Maybe you feel better, I don't know. I hope you do.

Yeah with water I can go much longer, I did the 3 day water one a few months ago and felt better brain function during that fast. I could have easily made this dry fast 2 days or possibly longer but didn't want to feel dead in the brain like I did for the last hour of the fast.

Yeah this was basically an intermittent dry fast but I think it's good to give my digestion and organs a break sometimes because I eat too frequently and thats probably making me toxic in stuff in the long run. Supposedly the autophagy is meant to be way stronger on dry fasts too.

She says the cell loses potassium in dry fasts? Maybe thats bad then

 

[MNK99]

Maybe save dry fasts for when you are cured... or for later, and concentrate on water fasts if it is more doable? You can keep trying to dry fast too tho. Maybe you need electrolytes. ON longer water fasts they are key too. You don't want to water fast too long without electrolytes. Maybe it is a good thing I stopped at 18 days for some veggie broth then did more 12-14days more.

I did juice feasts and breuss before that... 13 days 7-10 days or 14 days maybe even but they gave like 1 percent and weren't nearly as good. Water fasting was way better for me and I did 3-5 days here and there throughout 2018 and into 2020-2021 at times. Even 2022 and recently a bit. But in better health I do em more because I like them. I felt connection with longer ones... but I needed to really heal with the first one.

It helped emotions, mental stuff come back a fair bit. Being able to smirk... and feel some stuff, and testicles grow a bit or turn back on a bit. Vision got way better and suicidal thoughts turned off or at least mostly. I think fasting got rid of it yeah. I am sure other stuff helped too but for sure long fasting saved my life. I don't think I could do a long time dry fasting, like 5-7 days or anything. I get really dehydrated, I think I could do 30-40 days water fasting but it would be hard. Easier to stick to than a crazy diet, but then... just do TEI after.

If that is what I wanted to do now, in lieu I will make carnivore stricter and take tei soon. I did pay for 2 tests, evenbetternow got back to me, but I can use that as a retest. I talked to em a bit... about autism (what I am pretty sure is autism, from what I've read and what people have told me and how I've lived). And depression, PFS... using TEI in past. They recommend a practitioner but I don't know.

Maybe when I have more saved up or maybe when I am healtheir, IDK though maybe they'll help me faster.

 

[Fazed22]

@MNK99 Basically when I do Intermittent fasting I feel the increase in testosterone and mental calmness around the 13-16 hour mark but then after I guess the stress hormones kick in and PUFA/FFA enter the blood stream and you stop feeling good.

Or Garret Smith he says that people feel better from fasting because they stop dumping toxic bile and it all gets concentrated in the liver/gallbladder and when the body finally releases/dumps that toxic bile thats when the person stops feeling good from the fasting. I could see this being true too.

 

[MNK99]

Do you train and then eat? Eliminate PUFA 2 years.. I barely ever have em. A bit hypocritical perhaps it may seem, some messing up of my diet now... but for sure I never had nuts, peanut butter, etc... for at least 6-7months... if not most of 3 years ... minus when I had it in takeout at that time (undoubtedly).

Fasting and fasted training should help GH, Test, insulin sensitivity and all ... I used it extensively to get ripped pre abdominoplasty, that's also why I used sarms in mid late 20's a bit (with test would have been better, or HCG and those. Wouldn't use em for PFS).

I default intermittent fast mostly since high school like 20 years nearly so by default I think water fasting is way better for healing but yeah switching to it should help a fair amt too. Keep the eating window post lifting if you can. After eating you stop feeling good, I hear that. I think I am feeling good day 3 day 4 and more and more .. day 10 day 20 with carnivore but even that isn't great for me... that is probably a lot better than if I was really really sick with PFS.

I think you just gotta keep going man. Me too right now (which is why I am gonna cook substantial amounts of food not some 500-600calories,.. cook all I need for a day and a half at a time.. maybe 2-3 days sometimes). That way I can have butter and meat... and stave off cravings/ bad food.

 

[Fazed22]

Dr David L Watts (TEI) now, the red face does concern me, I get he is old but red face is basically a sign of Vitamin A toxicity or liver issues. Was it all the Vit A from the TEI supplements that caused that I'm not sure.

 

[MNK99]

Who's this old guy what the hell? He's like a non deranged / non mask wearing BIDEN. Non lizard biden.

AH dude I wouldn't worry about it. My adam's apple changed with pfs and face had some yellow marks. I looked 25 at 31 32 again in healing from PFS. From hard work.
All that expanded, my wrists, bones etc.. I measured all same size pretty much after adding minerals from diet, exercise, and lifting hard. 200lbs toxic --> 180 in water fast... --> 198 months later on randro/4andro
--> 192 after cutting. And then 176(skinnier but very ripped) to 186 most the next year with zero PFS treatment (maybe one PCT thing, herbally for 6mo to a year). HCG and var then would have been better
--or test cream. for me. I am sure.
--but minerals possibly would have been even a lot better.
--so don't cure it and then leave other issues untouched a bit... tei for sure is faster after hormonal/ TMO stuff... but many people had one cycle or more be inconsequential.
--I luckily never crashed for years and years... but I was in a long crash in 2017. It wasn't luck, it was fasting and ru486 and everything else I did.
--that is why I am sure test prop/ hcg, test cream/hcg would help me --> but it won't help autism/ shyness / social anxiety as much... --> tei will. AND maybe just maybe carnivore will too.
--I actually think TEI is less restrictive than carnivore because there are lots of foods you can eat. Strict carnivore is like... medium rare beef and fat. Beef and butter for me. Steaks are great tho.

TEI was one of 16 things or so I did... That dude is literally old and maybe he has some condition we don't know about.
THERE's no way minerals over 30-40 years will make you permanently red. I mean the wrong ones maybe... but Of all the things that people do, I really doubt strength training, fasting/intermittent fasting, water fasting, and mineral balancing will age you or anyone else.

Part of the reason I am stressed is because I know I will take care of myself better just with carnivore a few months then TEI a few months or both. BUT diet is harder. So I gotta make that and fitness great again. I have definition most areas.. and have a lot more after 5-6 days.. and 30 days I am sure I will be ripped again. AND 90 days? I will have better results and a routine again.... I just gotta make food ahead of time.

I hesitate to add TEI rite this second because I did it in excellent health and certainly not in completely changing health. ALTHO I guess I took it after 2months of just minerals and vitamins and no Randro/4andro.
SO maybe this time I should do it after a few months of carnivore.

 

[MNK99]

Can you do 1-3 more cycles and then... do the faster supplements from that dude you mentioned? The guy who was beefing with Metalsbrah (Clarke).

 

[RebelWithACause]

Dr David L Watts (TEI) now, the red face does concern me, I get he is old but red face is basically a sign of Vitamin A toxicity or liver issues. Was it all the Vit A from the TEI supplements that caused that I'm not sure.

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Maybe he got a lot of sun. That being said I wouldn't follow TEI for your whole life personally. Just do it short term like 1-2 years to get you going. After that find diet and lifestyle that keep healing you.

 

[MNK99]

Sun or alcohol. There's lots of reasons someone might be beat red. Test abuse (not in his case). Doubt it is from TEI and I doubt he ran it 50 years or something, probably here and there. THESE are not hard drugs or mood stabilizers like Lamictal or Lithium Carbonate. They aren't gonna make someone look worse. Maybe a bit fatter for a time, but no way is this gonna ruin someone's looks. It isn't finasteride or dutasteride and even that for many people is reversible (with hardcore discipline on a plan, and time). Yeah he probably doesn't and no one needs it long long run, except... if they take other stuff, but taking a few minerals to counteract if someone is a long term user of other drugs may help.

Some people just have genetic conditions where they are red. It is impossible to say from that photo.

 

[Fazed22]

Maybe he got a lot of sun. That being said I wouldn't follow TEI for your whole life personally. Just do it short term like 1-2 years to get you going. After that find diet and lifestyle that keep healing you.

Sun or alcohol. There's lots of reasons someone might be beat red. Test abuse (not in his case). Doubt it is from TEI and I doubt he ran it 50 years or something, probably here and there. THESE are not hard drugs or mood stabilizers like Lamictal or Lithium Carbonate. They aren't gonna make someone look worse. Maybe a bit fatter for a time, but no way is this gonna ruin someone's looks. It isn't finasteride or dutasteride and even that for many people is reversible (with hardcore discipline on a plan, and time). Yeah he probably doesn't and no one needs it long long run, except... if they take other stuff, but taking a few minerals to counteract if someone is a long term user of other drugs may help.

Some people just have genetic conditions where they are red. It is impossible to say from that photo.

Lol nah it's not sun, it is probably Vitamin A toxicity which a lot of older guys have (studies shown older men have too much vitamin A in their livers), or yeah could be from alcohol or some other liver issue. But red face means liver issues it is fairly common to see it in older guys

 

[Fazed22]

Do you train and then eat? Eliminate PUFA 2 years.. I barely ever have em. A bit hypocritical perhaps it may seem, some messing up of my diet now... but for sure I never had nuts, peanut butter, etc... for at least 6-7months... if not most of 3 years ... minus when I had it in takeout at that time (undoubtedly).

Fasting and fasted training should help GH, Test, insulin sensitivity and all ... I used it extensively to get ripped pre abdominoplasty, that's also why I used sarms in mid late 20's a bit (with test would have been better, or HCG and those. Wouldn't use em for PFS).

I default intermittent fast mostly since high school like 20 years nearly so by default I think water fasting is way better for healing but yeah switching to it should help a fair amt too. Keep the eating window post lifting if you can. After eating you stop feeling good, I hear that. I think I am feeling good day 3 day 4 and more and more .. day 10 day 20 with carnivore but even that isn't great for me... that is probably a lot better than if I was really really sick with PFS.

I think you just gotta keep going man. Me too right now (which is why I am gonna cook substantial amounts of food not some 500-600calories,.. cook all I need for a day and a half at a time.. maybe 2-3 days sometimes). That way I can have butter and meat... and stave off cravings/ bad food.

Nah usually I need to eat then train, training without eating my energy/endurance/strength is usually shit but having a scoop of whey protein before my workouts makes a huge difference.

PUFA I was previously avoiding it and was only having whole food pufa sources like eggs and oats but recently I did start eating some organic almonds from time to time (not a lot though because I still keep fat lowish) and I do find them helpful. But organic is key especially with things like nuts/almonds otherwise you are just eating straight glyphosate and this will make you autistic lol.

It seems like saturated fats can cause nerve issues (higher saturated fat intake is linked to multiple sclerosis) but pufa supposed to be helpful for multiple sclerosis, not saying I have multiple sclerosis but at times in the past I had nerve pain and numbness in legs that could possibly resemble MS. But when I ate pufa it seemed to help these nerve issues. It just sucks pufa decreases oxygen uptake in cells, can cause lipid peroxidaition, lowers steroid hormones, and can potentially cause diabetes so you need to be careful with it especially if your health is not great. I think because I have some damage or issues with my gallbladder this makes pufa more problematic for me as they probably get stuck there and cause more inflammation.

PUFA increases cell membrane flexibility and fluidity while saturated fat does the opposite so what this means I think if you are only having saturated fat this can potentially make your cells toxic in other stuff due to lack of cell membrane flexibility and fluidity.

Recently I have started adding coconut oil to my beef burgers/meatballs and it seems to make a difference compared to having it without so maybe there was some issue with the fat in the beef or possibly coconut oil is helping protect against oxidation from the iron I'm not sure.

Nah when I did the 3 day water fast I did feel good on it, did feel a bit slower but thats normal. Just after the fast my metabolism was slower and I wasn't getting any attention from girls either compared to before the fast.

 

[Fazed22]

Can you do 1-3 more cycles and then... do the faster supplements from that dude you mentioned? The guy who was beefing with Metalsbrah (Clarke).

Yeah like I am doing TEI but I have to go at my own pace, I can't just take it everyday at the schedule they're recommending, I listen to my body and take when my body feels like it and is ready for it. For example if I take too much Para Pack more than my body can handle I'll go into the sauna and will find it hard to sweat, so that could be because maybe too much vitamin A made me slightly hypothyroid or there was too much oxidation for my body too handle so this impaired my metabolism somewhat. Also the parapack will sometimes raise brain glutamate for me which is bad, if I'm already in high glutamate state and low gaba, then there is no point taking more parapack as it will just make this worse and you don't detox anything when you have excitotoxicity from too much glutamate.

Also my baseline is good, I dont have any autism, brain fog or anxiety when I'm off TEI, I have good energy to do stuff, just I would say my hormones aren't optimal like I don't feel high T, libido isn't great, my current HTMA results aren't great yet and I wouldn't say I'm thriving in life atm as spending too much time on my own not achieving much so I can improve on all those things. But yeah when I take TEI this can make me anxious and autistic sometimes so I would rather meet with friends or potentially speak to girls when I am off TEI.

I will probably get the faster supplements but it's gonna be expensive for the slow ox one as the guy says you can only order it separately due to it being a preorder so that means I'll have to do two orders which is annoying as I'm paying for international shipping twice. So its gonna be like 200-250 dollars if I get 4 of them. I would suggest you try them too because there does seem to be crazy hype about them from people on insta who have tried them.

I will get a job soon even if its a crappy one because I think it will be good for me interacting with people more rather than spending too much time on my own. I have also seen a lot of the mineral practioners say that a lifestyle change can make a massive difference on ones HTMA tests so I am interested to see if that happens to me.

 

[Fazed22]

@MNK99 I agree with this, think I'm gonna try the NA/K up from valence also

 

[MNK99]

maybe but.. i mean many goals are achieved without ever caring about that. I am sure.. dex helped and good diet/ but yeah maybe relationships, school would happen with that. I don;t think 99.999% of ppl ever consider it tho.

I am sure it will help but... i mean 2-3 cycles of tei will be useless to me without other stuff in life on track.

fast oxidation and dying earlier and achieving lots is better... and won't affect looks that much. if anything, i acted like a fast most the time, even with balanced hair tests.

I don't think there's much science behind many of the things these hair test people say. I mean more than 20000 ppl would use em, if there was. I still will use it but i mean. seems very hard to trust.

like a religious thing... gotta just believe it. i think compared to hormones (most of them most forms of test), and doing nothing, yeah it's better. But I am willing to bet ill get great results regardless of diet, and whether I take 2/3 or 4/3 the supps (minus getting/ feeling sick).

Everyone is selling "something special",only they can achieve. I'm not trying to hate, I'm just saying.
REDOX stasis/valence nutraceuticals >>>ARL I think.

AND TEI, I had results day one. So Ill use that. There's 20 other programs none of us are talking about. Many must be fine. I won't use enemas, this and that... it won't matter.
Cuz 99% won't lift, fast, or do other things that I do. So whatever I lose, I'll make up for in other detox ways.

I don't have ten yrs to fuck around like hair test sales guys.

 

[MNK99]

I may seem conflicted but don't get me wrong,

a hair test and reevaluating and taking 4-6 supplements is a lot better than endless blood tests, stool tests, genetic tests, waiting for reasearch etc, and most HRT/ TRT stuff (on own, just like HTMA supps, unless you pay a practitioner).

The actual imbalances, illnesses, symptoms supposedly don't matter... but I mean that's why people do different things, in different orders. Symptom resolution is not simple.

Everyone is different,. I may have quit TEI cuz life got busy and I thought all PFS was cured, and I really didn't think it would cure ADHD/AUTISM (or difficulty socializing, and other symptoms.. not sure If I considered it autism back then, probably vaguely knew but didn't care. I was gonna get a shrink in school, but not before).

I appreciate the help, you can probably tell goals are very important to me. Success, perfectionism, workaholism. BUT I had results day one... and those results probably made it look the way it does.

NO fasting a long time, no prohormones, no CD's herbs and everything else, ru486... who knows, it would have taken forever. I got bad detox and hellish symptoms out of the way for the most part, I believe in the first few weeks of March, feb 2018. But I am willing to accept detox will be bad.

Once I have more funds and am doing TEI for a time... and maybe VALENCE supps (but that might be too fast for me. I feel meds and stuff day one,, randro day one. Lamictal day one.. adderall day one. but not all things, magnesium etc day one), maybe ill send to 5-6 different hair test places to see what they do.

NOT sure what they do maybe a detox but there are hair testing labs as part of healthcare here, in my province,.. Im sure it only helps ppl who are severely poisoned (with like a deadly poison). I have no doubt it'd be useless vs doctors best, arl, or tei.. or other places.

it is partially rite. i mean no copper bc of randro, ARL or TEI one of em showed high hair lithium... ya it was LIthium orotate.

Al was from coke zero or aluminum coated (perhaps in the non stick coating) skillet pans.
Seems true. must work tbh, if it is illegal in NY state and Health Canada (like the post office, just a retarded organization) called me and tried to scare me about taking care of my own health.

They called me to make sure I am importing just for myself. You can send steroids and weed in the mail here (companies do or did everyday before "legalizing" weed more, and gov't taking over shyt. and it was better). But they question you taking minerals. THEY bitch at you if you say you took lithium orotate, until your thyroid and all tests show perfect... and they can't say anything.

THAT and the fact nearly none of em know about it (tho some psychiatrists, functional medicine, sports medicine and older docs feel it's a real thing), makes mineral balancing more likely to be real than a lot of their other stuff. It helped get rid of asthma for 2-3 years and gluten etc, I can still cut while eating it (tho fluid vanishes and fat days into not having it). I mean.. it definitely helps.

I smiled again with it, like when water fasting.. and like when I was on lamictal (8-9 yrs ago for a short time).

I think ppl that hormones hurt, ru486 hurt... or ppl still in a very delicate place and that couldn't water fast a long time... they dealt with detox symptoms. I healed nearly all quite fast, but I was dying for 10months straight basically in 2017. I did juice, breuss like 1.5-2mo pre water fasting. I don't count those bc they did like one percent. water fasting was like 1000x better for me.

AND it makes sense, cuz I intermittent fasted, got better body comps, and eliminated bad food.. got lean and gained muscle while burning fat with alternate day fasting like 5-6 yrs before taking fin.
always suited me. i think others fasting, isn't always good.

if it wasn't for autism/depression, id probably fast now. probably would help me way faster than tei but doing it slow with carnivore --> tei isn't bad either, for where I am rite now.

IF I get horribly depressed, I will fast again tho. I did 2-3 days here and there earlier this yr. Gonna be doing tei soon as i can.

 

[Fazed22]

maybe but.. i mean many goals are achieved without ever caring about that. I am sure.. dex helped and good diet/ but yeah maybe relationships, school would happen with that. I don;t think 99.999% of ppl ever consider it tho.

I am sure it will help but... i mean 2-3 cycles of tei will be useless to me without other stuff in life on track.

fast oxidation and dying earlier and achieving lots is better... and won't affect looks that much. if anything, i acted like a fast most the time, even with balanced hair tests.

I don't think there's much science behind many of the things these hair test people say. I mean more than 20000 ppl would use em, if there was. I still will use it but i mean. seems very hard to trust.

like a religious thing... gotta just believe it. i think compared to hormones (most of them most forms of test), and doing nothing, yeah it's better. But I am willing to bet ill get great results regardless of diet, and whether I take 2/3 or 4/3 the supps (minus getting/ feeling sick).

Everyone is selling "something special",only they can achieve. I'm not trying to hate, I'm just saying.
REDOX stasis/valence nutraceuticals >>>ARL I think.

AND TEI, I had results day one. So Ill use that. There's 20 other programs none of us are talking about. Many must be fine. I won't use enemas, this and that... it won't matter.
Cuz 99% won't lift, fast, or do other things that I do. So whatever I lose, I'll make up for in other detox ways.

I don't have ten yrs to fuck around like hair test sales guys.

Yeah I don't think HTMA guys have all the answers but nor does anyone, I think different protocols work for different people. Probably the biggest issue with HTMA and why more people don't use it is what Gbold said: "It's not a programme to feel better (at first)" and then also people are just sus about HTMA being a legit way to monitor minerals.

So what would you say is better Test or 4andro I am interested in trying one of them out to see what happens.

 

[MNK99]

True... but I don't think anyone with PFS, PSSD... felt good day one of trying something. Unless it was like 20-100 random things they tried. And then those people crashed again half the time anyways.
--initially at least. Like in trying various types of fasting for me. I didn't know it could help, till I researched here and online, seeing it helps so many random insane diseases (even if they are entirely different, they are types of inflammation etc).

I think with pharmacological injuries, everything is touch and go for a while. I was suicidal all of 2017.. and didn't think I would still be here by March or April maybe... June I realized I can have a good life still, in the next year. Maybe earlier than that but it took time for wiring, emotions, and planning, and brain health to come back.

I mean randro/4andro helped me get in better shape than ever. BUT*** It was in my most motivated year ever perhaps. (I mean,.. bedridden suicidal to amazing again).

I also am barely working out and trade most the day, back then all I had to do was heal. BUT 4andro really keeps u awake, because dht crushes estradiol, and you have better more total androgens with the both of them. R-andro converts to estradiol or DHT, along 2 pathways, IIRC. Randro is dry like Primo, Mast, Var, DHT cream all are (haven't used any except var, but this makes sense). 4andro is wet, like test.
Wet as in, Estrogenic, which is very anabolic. MORE SIZE. DHT should be more strength, more dryness, more facial hair, body hair perhaps, testes/penis size perhaps. Better harder erections.

ONLY DHT and no Test seems kind of suppressive, unless very low dose DHT maybe. DHT and hcg can be tried by some.

They are better forms for PFS purposes I believe, and all my receptors were more sensitive , thanks to water fasting, ru486, the electrolyte protocol.

I have unfortunately been ignoring health for much of the past 2 years.. and put it this way I was like 25-30 percent bodyfat to like 10-12 max end of 2018. Maybe. Relatively lean but I was very very lean 2018 end to 2022. I was 8-10 %bf pre FIN, after... destroyed. AND after fasting and herbs and randro/4andro.. 10-14 maybe... then under ten soon, at december--jan close. feb march next yr ripped.
--SO physique destroyed --> great, better than ever again over time.. 10mo working out and then cutting, a few mo in 2019. Maintained it. And will be there again!!

I think that some test forms would be good for me. I just think Propionate>>> enanthate. and Cream> propionate.
Never tried prop nor cream (at rite dose).

PROP and cream follow our daily rhythm better of release. AND stimulate 5ar and DHT way way more than Enanthate or cypionate. Many ppl, even docs are switching to cream.
ALSO it gives proper energy, motivation that many forms of TRT don't for a lot of people.

I react to dex way better than vyvanse, adderall, ritalin.. so I am an exact kind of person.
I am certain those will be better for me.

ANAVAR and test enanthate... maybe there's too much estradiol. I don't want to add arimidex and the like (no longer really scared of em. nor test, like I was after reading Propecia help.. but this is years later).
WHY did test and rad140 work well? Maybe the dose was way higher and the half life... of rad140 is like 48-60 hrs. Maybe medium lasting test e and rad140's long halflife, plus it being DHT backbone, helped. I am not sure. Most people would like Var better or equally to Rad140..

Mostly, Test cream/dht cream or prop should be better. Daily use, and boosting dht. DHT is probably my main issue. Helps drive and ambition and strength so much. Test and estradiol help wakefulness, estradiol is cardio protective, and mood enhancing... but some combo of all is needed. Avoiding an AI (aromatse inhibitor), Test Prop EOD or maybe Every day, and test cream daily may make most sense.

Test prop and test cream may be wicked for me for all i know. but It may just lead me to looking really good and being confident.. along with dex, but may not actually fix the autism/awkwardness/silence around ppl. That was partly bc my new lease on life was being hurt, but I wasn't ashamed of still trying to get into school.. lots do law at 31 or 32 not a huge deal.

I think unlike the perfect hormones (and maybe test prop or test cream would still need DHEA or something)... I think mineral balancing will help autism/ anxiety a lot more. maybe after that, dht max / run a couple cycles a yr... and when I am married or in a long term relationship, freeze some sperm or get on a fertility protocol. Supposedly minerals can do that too.

It is kind of like choose between recovery and maybe possibly a great medicine for confidence and body recomp (a precise HRT+ protocol), or much better in many ways Minerals.

ALSO maybe disappointment in hrt+ vs steady improving minerals. merit to both... stressed out, but hopeful to both.

myb if i ran test prop, cream... do that 3-6mo then add hcg.. and yrs later add better drugs. if great gains, experiment with mast/primo. but some ppl those do things biodentical test doesn't.

--also me at 190 and 14-15% bodyfat... test all forms would work better.. and at 10-12 percent, even better, with less side effects (like lipids, but who cares really to a certain extent about that), compared to
--210lbs and barely getting back to the gym. I mean I am working out 2-3x a week and usually I was 6-7 x a week. This is kind of trash for me but I am learning a lot about Autism/ Aspergers etc.
--trying to be optimistic. SEE HRT++ and dex will help maybe even effectively cure PFS and ADHD (as cured as u can be of the latter),... but I mean autism/anxiety/ never ever getting depressed/losing life structure again.. maybe MInerals are better for that.. and being open with my friends and women in the future, so they can keep me on track.
--I always made myself treat ADHD, and heal most pfs.. but when you are doing great, or bad... you need some help at times.

--I think most TRT what docs will prescribe and forms 5-6/10.. on own with different esters or making own solution or cream.. 8-9 maybe but i could be wrong. could be that for ppl without our androgen issues.
--and i think minerals were pretty damn good.
--maybe i can make HRT work but need extra drugs, and then I mean... IDK it kind of goes against what I decided a long time ago.. one maybe two drugs max (like if I had BPII, and ADHD: Lamcital/DEX).
--test/dex sounds good but what of mood?? and depression...

minerals sound better, to not fuck up something else or run into probs 2-4 yrs down the line.. even tho I sometimes say they're bullshit. It's difficult, having faith bro!!
Psychedelics, counselling and TEI sound better for the Trauma/Autism issues. TEI too.