I heard this was the thread for drug junkies.
Dude if you really want to get high off HIV drugs, you need to smoke the real african antiretroviral drugs, in africa, with warlords. --- Watch that Vice episode. The jury's out.
-- @zadig777 ----IF I had PSSD again, or knew better... OR hell if I knew for sure I was misdiagnosed... (before PSSD and before effexor), I'd Water Fast, workout, and use TEI.
-1. Okay for real now...
---I did have sexual side effects and also personality loss, difficulty say watching a show, attending class, talking to people, anhedonia, etc from the use of Effexor XR.
-I was like 20. I was misdiagnosed with Generalized Anxiety Disorder, when in reality ADHD (10/10) and BPII (5-8/10) (manic depressive supposedly, but not major highs and lows, just lows and dysphoria and agitated highs basically) were much more primary concerns. The anxiety was in school, relationships, fear of failure etc... could easily have dissapeared on ADD meds, or doing something I actually liked. --- Effexor was terrible for both ADHD and mood disorder (combined might be one thing or a lot of things, hard to say).
---Mania was pretty bad on it (seldom outside effexor... hypomania sure, in universities/ high school / work, but less and less unless high demands, or time pressure).
---WIthout drugs not that bad.
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-2. Re: PSSD. I don't want to give bad advice.
--Mostly, I moved... (lots of bad things went down, had to kind of leave home, and hide for a bit). Anyways, the point is, eventually I quit drinking, I quit Effexor probably cold turkey which is dangerous, and also zoloft or whatever the hell else they put me on.
---> then slowly got back to lifting weights, faked it to make it (didn't feel good at all and was dead tired). -- which is odd, bc I have tons of energy usually.
---> Ran a lot. --> moved to a big city, didn't have friends, walked a lot (like 30-40miles a week), that and weights definitely fasted at times. A bit later, only fasted***.
---> at the end, employed Nofap.
---> One thing tho.... losing all my friends (useless and useful ones alike), and also living in a not so great environment, and transferring to a new uni, and realizing vodka is terrible for depression, let alone focus. I strongly suspected I had ADD. And I didn't treat it or even really see a doctor. Until my school made me. But for 3 years I used cocaine... and I actually went to class on it, and kept a job at times. BUT* it is obviously a slippery slope.
--Lastly, kidding about all the drug stuff. I hate them. And meds. --I only like stimulants and quit alcohol like at 23. Quit cocaine at like 24. Quit effexor 21 or 22. Destroyed, fixed like in 2-2.5 yrs. Much of it was a bitch. AND I was blamed for it/ didn't really understand what was going on. Did recall reading major side effects...
-first job after, first 6mo after felt labotomized.
-didn't look into windows, forums, etc... just worked really hard, bc family etc were pretty pissed off.
---> only like stimulants. Did not know about TEI until earlier in 2018. I was pretty healthy, active, lean ish (17-18% bodyfat and lower). --> applying to prof. school, jobs, trading etc. And just finished a degree in economics...
---> Treating ADHD (after coke and quitting that, and fixing pssd, and fixing school situation, finances, credibility, etc), was not exactly enough.
---> Tried a mood stabilizer... for concurrent Bipolar II with ADHD.... ---> actually worked pretty well tho less than 3 months and a tiny dosage was used.
---> Like Adderall (because of NE effects there and vasoconstriction, 2.5-3 yrs earlier), Lamotrigine set off A TON of Hair loss.
---> Against better judgement, I tried Fin, 01.18.2017 -- for 124 days or less. --- And got more and more ill. QUit it, had surgery, got super sick.
---> Was suicidal, no digestion, bad vision, slight facial changes, looked aged, sun spots, and like 30+ other symptoms. I've had 4 or so 7months ago.
--> 3 and sometimes feels nearly cured in recent 3-4months.
--> I got hair tests, but used Randro 4andro, worked out fasted nearly everyday, water fasted 30+ days in early January to Feb 2018. --Refed, pct herbs, choline, ru486, ella.
---> Fasting, electrolytes, and TEI ---> are what I believe in most. (not all at the sane time). And of course fasted training and diet, but that goes without saying . Helps slow oxidizers, and why workout with crap results, may as well be fasted.
---I'd skip the Dopamine agonistic and Norepinepherine addiction (i.e. cocaine). And skip stimulants unless anyone has ADHD pretty severe.
---> and I'd do TEI. --Probably be ripped at 23 rather than 25, also, and happier back then. ALso graduate earlier and all that too.
---> TEI better more direct, less random, easy to explain, not so scattered/shotgun approach, and less miserable. ---> TEI.
--HELPS mood disorder, asthma (treated 18-20 years), insomnia (been there way before adulthood), etc.... and PFS. AND since day 1 most those.
-for me. Mostly I only consider other things, bc of vanity. Want to be 9 % bodyfat and not 12-13. Want perfect hair and not good hair. etc.
--otherwise, I'd just use TEI. Better than any psyche drug ever used for mood. PFS is in rear view mostly. Still a couple issues, but I'm very active, very ambitious, and at times v focused again. Back to career mode and all that. Still damage there to fix/ but nearly there.
-AND even then, if you are really young and don't need 300k for school, need to work/ do school, scholarships, pay for kids, etc... if you're young and have adhd, you can treat it later if need be... and just do tei 6months-2 years instead.
--or if taking stims, take the other stuff that it depletes. Again, not recommending stimulants or drugs.
-ED? Cialis might help 10%, water fast/ rebuilding helped dramatically more.
